all those words

2009-10-10T12:01:00.010+08:00

HAPPY HARI RAYA KAWAN-KAWAN(:

FIRST HOUSE! (yana bby's)

yana bby was in pink! hahahah, face covered.

ohhhhs, im the sexiest. NOT AZAM, NOT YAN. yuyu...can luhs. nana also can. rina ehs.. uhhhh, alaa, can luhs, can luhs.

oooooo, rina! azam nga emo! :D

budak melayu 4E3, sikit kan?

Aby ft Ayul

Aby ft Rina

Hari Raya was totally fun. This is only 1/4 of the pictures. There's still more left in Rina's camera. Ohhhs, how I wish we could celebrate hari raya everyday. Kaes, aby merepek. That will be boring. Super duper boring. I wouldn't want to be made to do the dishes. Yes, dishes that would pile up the sink when everyone comes. Hah, im lazy.

NATIONAL DAY '09

Jian Long and meee(:

aby + ayul again.

again.

and again.

again but with the mini eyes!

Jin Wai! your eyes where?

yana bby!

4E3 BBQ

SHAHRIDAHHHHH AND MR JOHN TAN! cuteee laa he.

seee, yana's adeq mcm monyet. Then joseph see only. Help luhs him to get own...selenger

LOVEEE THE TEDYY BEAR.

I LOVEE YANA'S BEDROOM SERIOUSLY(:

BUSYY COCOK UDANG!

CREDITS TO YANA BBY!

2009-10-01T19:03:00.003+08:00

It was a hardest hit.

I thought it would be just fine.

I thought I would get the best result.

But, everything seems wrong.

Everything is not just what I wanted.

These tears just kept flowing.

I don't want this to be happening for my O's.

L1R4:21

L1R5:36

Yes, it sure is a big jump.

I was speechless.

I couldn't do anything.

It was after DNT that we got back our results. I knew that I didn't do well. At all. To tell you the truth, I don't think it's called studying when I said I studied a little. Studying a MAXIMUM of four chapters only. Is that what you call studied? It's good to know that teachers are there for you. Mr See. He saw my results. He comforted me with his words. He made me feel that I can achieve what I want. Yes, it was definitely embarrassing. Crying in front of him. He did put a smile on my face. Thank you. For believing in me. Went to the toilet. Washed my face.

Went down to the canteen and saw Ayul. Went to his place and there was Yue Sin with Ruzaini. Ayul was happy. I think. But 'happy' words just couldn't come out from my mouth. I was afraid I would start crying again. And Nana came. Salam'ed each other. Told them that I won't be going night study. And Yue Sin asked me how much I got for my L1R4/5. I just felt sad again. I wanted to cry. My voice was different. I wanted to cry anytime. Cry out loud. I bid goodbye to them, and walked off. Was walking past general office when i saw Mdm Cheong. Ayul told me earlier that she wanted to see me.

We talked a lot. Lots of talking that I began crying again. Fast forward, Liyana came, sat beside me, gave me tissues. Both of them comforted me. Mdm Cheong. Your constant naggings in the morning was what I hated the most. But now, I come to realise how caring you are towards us. Yes, it sure was a 100% wake up call for me. Thank you for your support. Walked to the bus stop with Liyana. She gave me advice. A lot. I was touched. MY FRIENDS AND TEACHERS ARE HERE. THEY ARE MY SUPPORTING PILLAR.

I don't know but I started crying again at home. Mum saw me crying and started asking me questions. "Kenape kau?" shook my head and kept quiet. Took out the result slip, and put it on the table. Mum saw, asked uncle to see it. Wahh, sungguh sakit hati biler die cakap gitu. Baik-baik dah okayy sikit, twos nangis agyk.

till here.

2009-09-22T15:17:00.002+08:00

AT LAST, BLOGGER'S BACK TO NORMAL. phew, takes a long time for it to cureeeeee back huh. BOO. anyways, it's Hari Raya now, and im soooooo happy. at lastttttt, can eat. can drink. can scold bad word. O.O boo, aby, boo. ahahahahkxx, well, dah bnyk pon akuuu maki. ESPECIALLY THE BIG V. woooooooooos.

dread going school. the thought of having to iron my uniform, bathe so early in the morning, tie up my hair, wear my greendale socks with my school shoes and yellow school shoelaces makes me feel super duperrrrrr damn lazyyyyy. heh. but, what to do. thought i was late for school as the colour of the sky dah terang benderang. then, was like so stupid, walked so fast to the bus stop, mcm bus stop tuu lari pulak. heh! heh! heh!

first period was p.e. i wasss damn lazy to even be involved in the game. hahaha, we had captain's ball match luhs. what i did was just stand there, be the wannabe defender. booohoooo. but, i did scored one goal. hee. pat on the back for meeee!(: good job aby. but after that, sat down beside ayul who didnt wear p.e today because he thought it's mondayyyy today. (mon don't have p.e) hahahah, beylooo rite? khekhe, so. kate dah hbes puase, we GOSSIPED. (: bout that masaaaam gilerrrnye pompan, dawik jaoh, dah boleh bawuuuu.

EHHHHHS, GI BALEK LUHS. KAU DAH BUSOOOOK, DAH BACEN! PGI PAKAI DETTOL! PAKAI LIFEBOUY! DETERGENT PON BOLEHHHHH!

yes, we shouted that everytime she got hold of the ball. :D jahat ehs, perangai aby.ayul, perangai. hahs. next had chem prac, then phy. now, lets talk bout todays' getting of eng and phy prelims papers back. got 44/65 for physics. thats okayys what. B3 you know!

ENGLISH: nyehhhh, as expected, failed my english. i was spending an agonising decade in english lesson today. Wahhh, good right my eng, then can fail.

i had 17/50

i know it's not something to be proud of. but, sigh sigh.

YOUUUUUU BIG V!

set the paper so hard for what.

BIGGGGGGGGG V

BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG V

SUPERRRRRRRRRR BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG V

damn, you suck.

*smiles*

Kaes, night study is back. and im stilllllll lazyyyy to school. =( idk why im so lazyyy today. nyehhhh, kaes best.

2009-09-12T21:55:00.004+08:00

Okayys, i dont know why it all hurts reading those tags given by her. Just a sad thing huh. I really need someone right now and I dont know who i can rely on. I need a shoulder to cry on. I need a vast open field or sea so that i can shout out loud like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I havent been starting revision. I havent been sleeping well. Things dont seem to go pretty well for me and my first bro. It's always jealousy. jealous. jealous. Ohh no, and my eyes are all teary. Shame aby, boo!

I want to go out. Get out of this house. Run away from all these problems but i'm going to bring my mum if i'm running away. I need mum but sometimes she just dont understand me. I appreciate what she had done for me. Okayys, tears falling. wait, want to take tissue. back. ohhhs well. okayys. i have wayyyy long pictures to upload. nahhhh. amek kau.

he doesnt like me to hold him and when i did, he's so damn heavy that i had to hugged him and hold him tightly so that he wont fall down. he cried then, heh.

class bbq was fun but with a mix of emotions. heh.

muke aku burok, aku tawuk. heh, just wake up luhs, then they came. BABAHAHA, they're so cute, so have to seize the chance to take pics with them riteee.

okayys, get well soon kaes adeq, i love you! <33

2009-09-08T10:48:00.003+08:00

Studied with these two chaotic people. HAHAHAHAHA. Especially aini. It was a super last minute thing and after bathing, i changed. I didnt even asked who can go study with me. Yes, that was stupid of me. And i was so kanchiong. Asked rina whether she could go study with me at the airport but she didnt reply early. I wanted to be quick, so asked more and more people but they didnt reply too. Asked Abg shary, and he said: i cant study outside. Only home is the best place. =.= So then, decided to asked his friend, khairul. Asked him to asked another friend, a girl, out to study too. It was super freezing cold. heh. Let the pictures do the talking. Got a lot, but lazy to upload.

And doesnt mean going for an eyebrow shaping, you could judge me Abang. Just because some of my clothes, the way i dress and my outside looks look like a typical minah to you, dont label me. I hate it, seriously. You're my bro and yet that little talks of yours could just hurt me anytime. We've been into a lot of fights especially in my adolescence years. And you said this morning that you know me just well off. No, you don't. I don't act the same way in school. I dont act the same way in my house. I don't act the same way in public. Sometimes, i just don't know how to act in many situations. Yesterday, you said to adeq. See this grrl(pointing to me). Shes the malay version, MINAH. ~yaa, whatever crap.~ Dont find any malay grrls when you grow up. Find a chinese one. Abg, just because you've seen the outside world, you judge people by their looks. And, actually, you didn't see the world in that beyond, more than anything. You're so self-centred judging every grrls by their looks. For example, if there is a woman, well-dressed, all covered with clothes. Then what? You say you want her because she is just like how grrls should wear. When you dont even know whether she has a good heart or not? NO RITE!
Of course i answered back to adeq who seems to be like the lamp post, And i wouldnt even want to find a malay boy who only knows how to play game all day long, a game freak, a game geek && dont know how to help people such as laying out the food on the table or cleaning them after pre-dawn meal or breaking fast!

Seriously, you dont know me abang.

2009-09-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

it sucks, it sucks, it sucks. today's prelims paper sucks.

2009-08-30T13:03:00.011+08:00

OKAYYS, IDK WHY THE PIC IS SO DAMN BIG.

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but some how feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true.

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.

If you love someone more then anything, then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart.

I want to be with you tonight, tomorrow, and today it can't happen now but it will someday.

Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

Can miles truly separate us?

You know you love someone when the mere thought of losing them brings you to tears.

I wish that I could hold you now... I wish that I could touch you now... I wish that I could talk to you... be with you somehow.

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle... rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.

A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but... you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around.

Just because I moved on doesn't mean I won't be here if you change your mind.

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you... and I wish on a star that somewhere you're thinking of me, too.

I did something to you, so would I be out of line if I said I miss you?

It's been quite awhile... I must say I miss our friendship. I miss you, but what I really miss the most is not just you or us but how it all was.

I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!

I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much!

I know i've been busy, I had things to do too. We haven't talked for some time, I wonder if everything's fine. I had other stuff on my mind, I'm sure you did too, but I just had to tell you this my friend... hey I miss you.

People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.

If you missed me then I'm sorry I didn't stay away longer, I like being missed.

Just the thought of being with you tomorrow is enough to get me through today.

The best feeling in the world is to be millions of miles away and still be able to picture his eyes.

Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But you never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.

I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.

Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.

I miss you most when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.

Not being able to hold you has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I get to look forward to the next time you are in my arms; your smile only inches away from mine getting closer and closer until at last... our smiles meet. Something that beautiful... that's what keeps me going.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star that somewhere, you are thinking of me too.

It's not a 'good-bye', only a long 'I'll see you later.'

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you.

msg me kaes, im sorry for neglecting you adeq.

2009-08-22T08:05:00.000+08:00

whats with bro sia. hey, this is my DNT O LEVEL. i nid pictures, so i took your camera. i did. but cant you just give in to me for a second. You know mumy has been asking me bout the class gethering thing and im so fed up. Dont she understand that this is my last yr with my CLASS! Asl asek nk gi johor? Mcm tk leh pgi hari laen gtu. my gosh. Then now, bro, u dun want to give me the usb cable. pls luhs, aku tk nk marah2! sesungguhnye aku berpuase...

im upset with my results. have been crying each time someone talks about it. B3 aint enuf for me. i want a distinction. was expecting for A2. yesterday had my eng oral. and it just sucks. my voice was so unlike me. arhhh, everhting is going wrong.

2009-08-20T18:54:00.001+08:00

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2009-08-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck. blogger is still the same. Anyways, family is going out later. I want to study but but heh. Mum is forcing me to go. I want to but baju kebaya and this was waht mum told me just now. Lets translate okayys. Eh, nah. This one got my old kebaye.

I was like wtf? heh. You want me to wear yours? IT'S BIG MUM! SUPER BIG! haish. I got a lot to post about but im lazy to type. Okayys, i want to bathe. Want to go CLARKE QUAY! let's party there kaes family.

:DDDD

2009-07-30T12:48:00.000+08:00

Damn laa this blogger. Cannot put pictures. Anyways, I'm dying of boredom at home. I got 3 days of MC due to some sickness. I shan't elaborate much on it. I'm just so pissed off because MY LESSONS ARE MISSED. O level is getting near and it's sending me goosebumps as I looked at the calendar into how many days are left. To tell you the truth, I haven't even start revision yet. Night studies are left for NIGHT HOMEWORKS. How to revise like this? Heh. All I'm thinking of now is to get well soon and start to work my butt out/off. Is that a correct thing to say? Okayys, WORK LIKE HELL.

All I've been doing at home is just sleep, eat, sleep, eat. I'm gaining on FATS. fatty acid, hwakks! Even the food are tasteless. Gosh. Well, actually, i'm having throat infection, eye infection and flu. Blah, polyclinic was so packed that time that I felt like running away from those sick people. Anyways, Im one of them but. hjfkdsghfgsd.

I couldn't sleep well yesterday due to some bastard who cheated my feelings. SAHIH btol. How could i believe his words just like that? Skali check check, dah ader mataer luhs. It was his 3 mthsary on 22july09. Syabas luhs ehs. I was so fmad that i couldn't sleep a wink for a few hours. My prepaid was low, so i crept to mum's bedroom and used adeq's phone to msg him. hahahah, sorry didn't tell you adeq. You know, I just couldn't bear to wake you up at 1 plus plus am. OOOO, im such a good sister if look at this point of view. Kaes, back to the story. Of course i maki2 die. Dalam diam-diam, playboi laa siol. Heh. HWAKS!

Dah, laa, malas nk ckp agyk. And i got to know that my class is taking a class photo today. WITHOUT ME?!! ohhh, life is just so hard and sad. OKayys bye.

2009-07-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

I've been very busy with my night study nowadays and THAT is the BEST because, I can now control myself from using the telephone to call anyone. That was what i did everyday. On the phone all night long. Of course, i'm tired from all these activites. From 7.30am to 2pm, had normal school. Then remedial. Then DNT. Then night study. And i could only go home at 9pm.

It's effective laa. hahahaha. Anyways, i'm glad he replied my msg. But, i dont look forward in it anymore. Well, sometimes i feel like venting anger on somethings. I've been trying to control all my vulgarities cause i dont think it's nice to hear. If i say also, it's just a joke okayys. Depends. Somethings have been bothering me at home. I just want my own bedroom to be MY BEDROOM. Mine and not anyone else. And after my night study, i just want to have a peaceful quiet place. My comfortable bed. I dont want people to rearrange my stuffs as if they know which one looks nice and which one doesn't. I don't want people to meke me give up my things for them. So not the fair. It's mine laa.

2009-06-21T14:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABY, ABY AND ABY.

At last, i've passed the NC16. I am so grateful, happy, not upset, and double happy and triples. Yes, I am so pissed off with my long fringe that i cut it by myself.

Goodbye long fringe and Hello short fringe((:

Yuyu, Rina and Ayul celebrated my belated 16th birthday on Friday. Went to watch the movie DRAG ME TO HELL. I recommend you people not to watch it cause i think there's lots of graphics and merepek. The movie is a mixture of horror plus funny. Well, what i hated in the cinema was that there were a group of minahs behind us and they were so super duper noisy that i feel just like slapping their faces. Come on mann, comments about the movies, keep it to yourself. You can like comment them afterwards right? OMG, shut up next time kaes and don't disturb others. After the movies finished at 10pm, went to PS to search for yuyu father's FATHER'S DAY PRESENT. It's boring you know when we just go out to watch movies, so went to rivervale mall's mcdonalds and lepak lepak there and Ayul took out my birthday present. SILKYGIRL okayys. I wonder how much it cost.

THESE WERE THE PRESENTS THAT I RECEIVED! :D

There is nothing going on with me and Khamis. Hahah, i'll just take it since it is a birthday present yaa. Bwo and his frens and girlfren made a video for me. Unfortunately, I couldn't open it as there is something wrong with the CD. But Khairul promised that he would be burning it another one! BEST!

Family and i celebrated my 16th birthday on 17 June at 11 plus plus pm till 12 plus plus am. That means, i celebrated my birthday in so called 2 DAYS! woohoo. Congrats aby(: well, wanna know why we celebrated so late at night? Cause my brothers came home late. They knew it was my birthday that day but they purposely came home from where-I-don't-know late. I was so mad and even wanted to cry. Okayys, actually, tears literally came down my cheeks. Another reason was that my father had to work so, he came home late too. THAT was not a problem to me laa actually. But in the end, it was a great celebration cause we shouted like mad and took a pinch of cake and wipe at each other's faces. We took a video but lazy to upload laa.

On the 14 June, Abah, Ibu, Shahrukh and me went to the Hockey match at Sengkang Stadium Well, even though Sinagpore lost by the score of 5-3,our team did their best. I'm so proud of my country!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NANA ON 4 JUNE

Celebrated at Pasir Ris Park. It was very fun laa deh. And you know what, we had two rounds of water bombs! Hahahaha, it was the first time i played it and it is very the shiok, bodoh! ehees, i forgot who much waterbombs we made but for the second round, we made 70 plus plus waterbombs. Imagine how we carried them all the way to our pit! omg, yes. There were some that had meletup along the way to our pit. hahaha, Best laa siol.

ohh btw, look at this. I dont know what had happened but i hope it'll get well soon! Amin!

2009-06-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

It has been so duplet, triplet, octagan, centuries and era since I've start updating my bloggy. Malay O'level has just past and I'm so relieved.

phew

I'm just happy to have a nice warming brother who kindly and gently asked me:

Baby, how was your O' level paper? Is it hard?

I was so mesmerized and saw stars whriling around his smelly head. It was so thoughful of you to have ask me unlike other members in the family who just know how to nag at such a lovely daughter.

I LOVE YOU, BROTHER.

be my boyfriend kayy.

And here are the crazy peeps that kept me super crazy with thier super crazy jokes and their super crazy behaviour. Super Bowling was all we could think of since one of our super crazy Datuk Yuyu had some problems in the water. And so, super picnic was cancelled.

But it's still the super best!

This is the ANIZAH DIVA (as called by her friends).

ps: I don't know why pple call her that when I think she's just a plain old lady. correction, no diva please.

I'm just so so so so so so sorry a zillion times as I will not be celebrating your old birthday on the 6th june as I think I got so much more important and fun things to do. nah, just joking. I'll be sabo-ing you okayys. Just wait till the princess gets into action. ((:

See, I'm just the perfect ever cuzzie in the world you could ever get.

This is the PARANOID YANA who is now so called my little grlfren.

Oh yea, you go grl. Actually, I don't know what to say. Ohhh yar, this picture was taken at a HIGH CLASS STANDARD RESTAURANT.

You guys should go there too because it's where everyone would dream of going to.

the MCDONALDS at compass point.

Back with this little nice, lovely guy who brought me to watch the merepek

ANGELS VS DEMON.

Thanks dear for blanja-ring me again. You're the best.

Next time, blanja many many times again okayys and I'll be the

HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE HOUSE.

I am just so bored. Uploading pictures is the nice legal way.

ICE-CREAM, the perfect medication for BFFS getting out together.

Was on the way to arina's cuzzie's house which was also situated

somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue...

No.

Near anizah diva house.

But our effort was wasted when no one opened the door for pretty girls and handsome boy like us. It's okayys.

But, still the best yar spending together with the crazies.

2009-05-31T21:21:00.000+08:00

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO WILL BE TAKING MALAY O' LEVEL PAPER TML OKAYYS.
especially to my besties YUYU, RINA, NANA, AYUL. wont be blogging for now.

2009-05-01T19:38:00.000+08:00

1 MAY 2009

JANGAN TEGUR.

Yes. i watched it with this asshole at E Hub. hee. He treated me. It was really fun with all the shocks and fucking hantu, make up like sial. WOW to be exact. hhaha, the person who did the make up did a job well done. khekhe. Really! Kaes, first, went out and took the bus 87 which i waited for so long. Perangai Kons btol. hahahah. He dressed like a MAT REP. sorry to say that. But i dun care. Its his nature. Who am i to comment others anyway..

Next, we went to a park. Told me ghost stories and i was so scared. He had much stories. So much. We shared a lot. I missed him all these while. It's been a year. hahahah. Meet again soon kaes ?

much much loves(:

Okayys on 26 April, went to the cemetry. (grandfather's) Yea, looking back at the time, it passed so fast. It's been 10 years since he's gone and i was so hurt seeing my nenek cry. She loved him so much Atok just went so fast. My adeq never got to see his face. yaaa, Kaes. Afta that we went to Lot 1 to eat breakfast. Imagine laa, waking up at 6 plus plus in the morning and bathe all that to go to the cemetry. Sapa sia tk penat. Anywayys. FOOD. I ate KIMCHI NOODLE. soooo the triple sedaaaaap. :)

2009-04-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

18 April

went out to compass point. mum bought a NEW thing like wow. hahahh. that thing is really pretty. i want one too. kaes, aniways, went to KFC and mum is going to give me $10. not a big deal, but its worth a lot. i wanna buy some nicee, classic skirts.(:

10 April

went out with dearest families to Tampines 1. Abang Shary bought his shades, adeq bought his jogging shoes just for the purpose of using it for his NAPFA test. like wth? ahahah. wanted to bought a dress but i remebered goin to bugis street with arul, i saw a dress which cost much more cheaper. Then, decided to pass it. blaaaa, neminds, but mum bought me some nice shirts. hee. tinkiu ibu!:D he pic below is ibu and abah. sweet kn dorang?

11 April

went to bahas competition to support our juniours. yar, even though we didnt manage to get to the next round, they still gave thier best. Good Job people! We took some photos too..

wany dudok kangkang. nk tunjok ape ehs? hahahah

3rd April

i went out with qamarul. he came to outside my house. abah yang suroh. heh. Bought a way advanced birthday present for aref. hahaha, i didnt know what to buy, so i decided to go out with qamarul so that he could tell me which one is nice and which one is not. yea, we went bugis street and bought a belt which has a buckle of a shape stars. quite nice laa. then, proceeded to clarke quay and we sat there. old memories are hard to forget. after that, we go home laaa. :D

i miss him much!

2009-04-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

i cant really update much. too may pics to put but my brother wont lend me his usb cable.

2009-04-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

Ehs, lau dah kahwin tuu, buat jek lah dah kahwin. Jgn nk menggatal ehs. Dah ader anak tapi maseh tk sedar diwi! Heh. wth mann. Hate pple like you.

I cant wait for POP tml. But, at the same time, i feel sad. Omg, i think im gonna cry now. Tears are already welling up my eyes. Gosh, having to think that our juniors are taking our positions just like that, i feel so hurt. Even though i don't show much activeness in Red Cross, i really do LOVE my CCA and i'm proud to be in that CCA. But, its okayys. As long as our positions fall to them, i won't feel worried about the future of greendale RC.

I'm supposed to be doing my hmworks but, alaaa. LAZY.

2009-03-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

Today's school day was a total W.O.W.

Yes, it was really fun with besties around me who's going insane. hahahah. Well, first of all. P.E was the best when you get the chance to disturb ayul. Khekhe. I did a lot of things to him. Something censored happened during our p.e lesson. Well, was practising sit-ups with my group members for NAPHA Test. Then, this guy came up. I shall not name who it was. Heh. I thought i saw his *bird* was like going up like an elevator. kaes, too much info for you pple i guess. But really boy, it was utterly disgusting.

Yes, DIGUSTING.

hahahaha. If you wanna see other pple's mountains, just go pick one who has really a BIG one like a bomb. ehehhes.

History lesson was my napping time. Mr Cheang showed us a video that was a total bore to me. It made me sleep until my head hurts when i put my head on the table all the way. ohhhh mama. Sakit btol.

Assembly!! gagagagag. My BFFS are really funny. Once again, i shall not tell in further details to avoid any misunderstanding. :D

Chemistry. Liyana, wow. I felt pity for her. She broke up with MR R.*silent break* and omigosh. Could you believe it? She got a scandal, that is MR Z whom she says, shes going to break up with him sooner. playgirl. and she wrote WTFH to me. hahahahaa.

Going home. Thx ehs Rina. We were under yuyu's block when she suddenly remembered that she forgot to return the class key. ahahahhkxx. And she asked us to go back all the way to school with her under the hot lovely sun that is MELTING our skin ehs ayul. khekhe, and she some more said that it feels like going home today takes such a long time. YAR, its because of you. But neminds. Sbagai BFFS, aku sanggup kaes. i'm sincere. hahahah.

Was sleeping when i received a message from liyana saying that someone in school who is OLDER was interested with me. Want to know, ask me. Maybe i'll tell you, maybe i dont.

I want to go out this Saturday luhs. Nk beli topi okayys. Have enuf money alr.

2009-03-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADEQ(:

2009-03-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY TO SHAHRUKH on the 15th March

YES, SORRY for not giving you any presents but Kakak will belanja you on ice-cream okayys? I'm planning to bring Shahrukh to Swensens when i have enuf money. hahahah.

Now, i'm waiting to go out with mum. It's 3.10pm and i had been waiting since 2pm. Fuck laa. Quarreled with ibu just now cause of tml's outing. DAMN IT. Whatever la.

2009-03-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

Studied under my block!

I am back from my so called enjoyable POA extra lesson. Yes, i had to go back to school. Its a dread but i want to do well for my o' levels alright. As the clock strikes to 2.45pm, the class ended. It was raining cats and dogs. Ayul didn't bring his umbrella. Of course I am the Miss Nice of the day and kind enough to share my umbrella with him. Oh yes. It sucks because he acidentally kept stepping on the puddle of water. And....... I got wet.

At the bus stop. Took pictures. And received msg from many people.
From Ayul, Indra, Rafizi, Elza and Deanna(: I found Deana's msg so touching.

Deanna:

Cinta itu memang buta, tapi cinta itu juga tidak boleh dipaksa, dilupakan dan diharapkan...
Hubungan mempunyai onak dan duri...
Hanya diri kita sendiri yang boleh kita percayai...
Have faith in yourself aby...
Be strong...
You go girl!!!(:
love, de@

and, i replied her this when i reached at home later...

Aby:

Di sebalik sekilas senyuman di bibirku ini,
tidak ku menduga kepahitan ini akan berlangsung.
Fikiranku masih menerawang.
Hati mana tidak pilu apabila jiwa dirundung resah dengan apa yang terjadi
pada Isnin lalu.
Apa yang harusku lakukan?
Air mataku bercucuran di pipiku yang gebu ini setiap kaliku memikirkannya.
Ingin ku cuba membuka lembaran baru tetapi aku tidak bermaya.
Rasa sayu sering singgah menjengah di sudut hatiku.
Aku terus hanyut dalam lamunan tentang apa yang engkau telah katakan,
tentang
CINTA ITU BUTA.
Dan kini, ku cuba pahami apa yang ingin kau sampaikan.
Terima kasih dea(:
salam sayang,
aby(:

yes, Im so into msging that i didnt realise how long it was.

KL TRIP

2009-03-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

2009-03-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

im so in the groove for Sec 4 Motivation Camp mann. wow, its only two days and i think im getting the hang of it. i have my dreams you know. i wanna become a stewardess or get in a job thats involve with hotel management. i want to achieve my dreams and i think my friends too can do it. Coach Sabrina was totally WOOOOOOOOO. yea, bebeh. shes the rawkest. and with Coach Sherwin and Coach Kelly and 4e3 and 4e4, LIFE IN SCHOOL FOR YESTERDAY AND TODAY are like heaven.

yea, many things happen today. lots of hurts in the heart, pouring our personal feelings out and even fun. i could even feel a sense of unity. i love today. and i love you coaches for making me realised somethings thats been bothering me. i wanna pursue my dreams oh yea.

THE SOMETIMES...
i think what they said were all true. i have to leave everything behind and achieve my goals. get VERRRY the GOOOD grades for my o levels. hahahaha. now im getting fed up with boyfriend. if you are reading this, its just my luahan hati. i noe ure going for ur ns. but now ure not. u got time for ur family and thats totally fine with me. u got time for ur friends, ur band. but not me. i dunno which one is which cos sometimes i think ure lying to me. ure not the one that i used to noe. so, i dun care bout it nimore cos i think im tired sometimes, each time, to be specific. waiting for ur msges is like waiting for the whole sea to evaporate. okayys, im exaggerating. heh. okayys fine. my solution: u do ur own stuffs, i do mine. i cant hav any hindrance like this to stop me from getting emo at school right? thats stupidity. yes. sometimes, i feel like saying: yea aby! you dun need a man! just a company will do. hahahaha. but im glad i gt to know you.

pictures with them will be taken tomorrow with coaches. meanwhile, cant wait for HOLIDAY NIGHT at the keretapi with lovely cuzzies..(:

2009-02-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

I am getting miserable each time. I'm so stress in my studies and other stuffs. Lots of stuffs. Families and blah, blah, blah. Abang, I so hate you. You know why. And don't ever think i am going to talk to you. Sometimes i wonder, do you even fit to be my brother. In any case, I'm happy cos i have a family. Thank you banyak-banyak.

Well, it all first started on that unlucky Friday. Actually, it was supposed to be a happy day cause I got promoted to Staff Sergeant. Congratulations Aby! hee. Kaes, back to the story. I arrived home at 7plus plus on that day as i had a cca luhs. So, who also does not feel tired right after a long day in school. I reached home and ate food. Hungry, of course lahs i eat. That time, there was still a lot of rice in the rice cooker. So, buat bodoh luhs. EAT, EAT, EAT. Then rested, did homeworks and stuffs. At 11pm. Cik Nolan, Abang Shary and adeq was in the living room. Mum is too busy watching the television in her bedroom. Abang reached home from school and went straight to the kitchen. I was otp talking to him, but i hung up immediately. Our talks lasted for minutes. Not as long as we used to cause my ppd finish alr. Abang then called me, so i went to the kitchen luhs.

Abang: Eh, kau tk tawu masak nasi ehs! (you dunno how to cook rice ehs!)
Aby: Eh, aby balek lambat per! (eh, i reach home late what)

So, don't expect me to do housework or niting. I went to the living room and sat. Abang was sooo in the bloody bad mood just because of "NO MORE RICE IN THE RICE COOKER". awww. so sad. bitch. He then went inside his room and took his money. There was telephone luh on the floor and he he accidentaly hit it. The gagang telephone fell but he just ignored it. Fuck lah ehs bro. He opened the gate.

Aby: Don't try to show attitude uhs.
Abang: Kau jgn kurang ajar tau aku cakap! (dont be rude!)

He barged towards me and gave me a

one tight slap on my cheeks.

Aby: Eh, aku tk anoh kau kn, bodoh! (eh, i didnt hit you right!)

Abang kept hitting me. Fuck luhs. Who also will just stand there amd sincerely give the person to hit you right?! Abang Shary tried to seperate me from Abang. But, to no avail, he kept hitting me. I did too. But not as strong as how he hit me. Dah lah badan mcm giant!

Mum heard the commotion.

Mum: eh, asl nie! (ehs, whats happening here?!)

Abang went out of the house to buy some food for himself even when ibu called his name out many times. He doesn't care.What hurts me was that ibu boleh lagi sokong Abang.

Mum: Tu lah, makan selalu tk ingat orang blakang. Sape suroh...

I cant believe she just said that. Padahal aku nie dah penat2 balek dari skola, abeh aper. Die expect aku buat kerje rumah?

Of course lah i was crying. Tk kn pasal tk masak nasi, kau nk marah2 aku kn. asal nk marah aku! asal tk marah orang2 lain yg ader pat umah nie?! dorang buat ape the whole time? goyang kaki per! That's it. I've had enuf.

I just don't want any more problems. It feels weird sometimes now when i talk with him otp. haiss. & to wawan: i hope tings will get better for you.

I just need some space, freedom. Inilah orang, kalau dah kurang attention from the person she loves truly. I want my bedroom back! I need privacy. I have to go out of the room to do my homework when nenek wants to sleep. I had to do everything she said and yes, I'm getting very annoyed. Just wanna be happy with my friends for now. Its them. All i think of are my friends. They make me forget everything and just enjoy in school.

CNY CELEBRATION && PARTYYYYY

2009-02-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

Joycelyn & Me:D

Me & Eme(:

the shot i like the most!

aby & Hui Ning:)

Aby & Crappy crab! (Yuan Ting)

Me & Jian Long

Randolph, the brownie baker(:

the foods! Canadian pizza, wedges, drinks...

Bobby & Me!(:

shahridah & Mdm Cheong!

2009-01-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

damn, im tired. im sick. i got a bad case of having an-irritating-sickness. zzzz. i wanna get well soon. i wanna go school. sitting in the house all the time, sleeping for more than 15 hours a day. its making me dizzy. the medicine. eeeyukk! hate the taste. im sick since sunday or monday. and my temperature is 39.3. waaah. sakit-sakit pon leh main comp ehs aby? pandainye aku.

i couldnt take it nimore. and i started crying like a baby, calling for "ibu" countless times. my body felt weak and it was 8 a.m. so, abah had me carried to the toilet. washed up my face and was dragging to the clinic. it was the first time ever that i was checked by the doctor soooo long, as what i can remember luhs. had a urine test done. was asked to lie on the bed by the doctor.. and blah, blah, blah. the doctor was scared if if i had a dengue fever. so yea. had to check this and that.

kaes, enuf. i just wanna get well soon.
teeheee.
aku nk keluar on saturdayyyyy!!!!!

2009-01-27T18:49:00.000+08:00

nie luhs adeq angkatkush yg tersyg.

hee.

adq, i mish you luhs.

bile luhs nk jumpe agyk?

dah kenal for almost a year, kaes, maybe more.

tapi, jumpe 1 KALI ajek.

in only 7 MINUTES?

sedih aku.

but niwaes, thx for everything adeq.

you were there for me when im happy & sad.

i lovee you luhs deq.

hee.

dun be sad kaes bout what you found out.

theres still many out there.

lots of lovee.

aby

the really fun thing.

2009-01-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

on sunday was outing with cuzzies. yupps, i twuly had so much fun cycling for like two hours. but my butt was sore the next day, and my legs. i dunno, i have to walk like kangkang like that. it was really painful and i was tired of course as the next day, i had school. its really gweat and i cant wait for my aunt to tweat us again. she said she'll be treating food. yummy! some more, it will be on the day after valentine's day! how sweet. aniways, credits to uncle najeeb for the twuly loveeely pics! hah, pics are taken fwom kakak aishah's blogg niwaes. hahas. and sorry kak nisa. i'll upload our pics asap okayys!

2008-12-28T17:07:00.000+08:00

nana.
ure my biggest, most huggable, trustful bestfriend.
hahha.
loveee kamu lots grrlfren.
:D

has just finished editing nana's pic. hahs, i was bored luhs. cant wait to go buy stuffs tml. and on tuesday, im going out with bwo and his frens maybe. gonna buy a bag. been waiting so long to buy that kind of bag. and now, hahs, get money and shop!

today was twuly a boredom. i miss wany. haish. miss yuyu. miss nana too. i cant wait to see them when school reopens. gonna give them a biggg hug!

monopoly is my dail-life-thing to do. hehehes.

2008-12-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

Firstly, congrats to ABG SHAHARY for getting all A in his subjects for the year end exam. hahahas, hes going higher nitec and im hpy for him. Really pwoud baby. and also to faiz, congrats for getting your first choice.

i dunno, things are getting worse between me and him. whats wrong with us. we're getting further apart. when we talk otp, it was not like the old times. used to joke around and stuffs. but man, we've truly changed and i dun like tat.

aniways, i really miss him. wanst able to talk with him otp nimore. haish, it was fun though! hehehes, hope i could get a chance to talk with you again baby! khekhe..

we're going to the singapore expo this monday. cant wait to get my $150! then, spend. spend. spend. shopping. i wanna go shopping with him. i wannameet him again. i misssssss yooooooooouuuu.

damn homework, you suck mylife.
:D

2008-12-23T16:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday. really had fun with besties. hahs. ayul, jia ling and me went to do project at rina's house. we are going to do a movie clip for our perth project! gosh, toking bout perth, i really miss the place...but what to do? one day aby.. eheheees.

okayys, finished doing the project around one plus. my gosh, heard from rina that shes beginning to be further away from us. yea, i've realised it too. we used to be damn close but now, its just like we're NORMAL frens. what's wrong with her? why is she getting away from us? shes close to others. i dun want her to repeat her old mistakes. i really missed her...i miss talking with her otp, sharing secrets.

aniways, after that, went to The Tropical, i think. went swimming at ayul's aunt condo. was supposed to be fun, but i spoilt it. cos, i dunno how to swim. ohhs, how great is that? but nevermind, they taught me the batman float! pics are at rina's camera..

after that, meet my baby love for a while.gosh, hes sick. get well soon okaes?

i miss talking with the people i used to talk to on the phone...

2008-12-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

living in this house is getting scarier. why? ohhhs. because of my uncle. well, he just lived in my house since last month i think. ouh btw, my rooms taken by grandma plus my uncles. so, i have to sleep at mum's bedroom everytime. my bedroom, still mine. okayys. whenever i comb my hair inside my room (confirm uncle inside also)... the way he look at me. omigosh, he really look like he wants to eat me. his sinister smile is making me going scared. ibu... tolong.

just now. when i went to the kitchen, he was there. and he said : lawa anak sedare ku niee..
he look at me from up to bottom. you know what i mean. its been a few times it has happened. i hope nothing of this sort happens again.

and now. friendster. she added me. and i saw his comments. the way he gave her a cmnt is like the way a "loving couple" does. it truly hurts. calling her 'bby'? in fact, he just known her for a short while. strangers become close.

that really sucks. im becoming more and more closer to arul. dun get the wrong idea. hes just my fren. i nid him. he nids me. i nid frens. my bestfrens. whatever, i dun care.
i dun't know why.
we are just normal.
but some things are just there to break us apart.